NICE DREAM

I supposed to wake up at 12noon today but was dragged to a very nice dream until 2pm. The dream is very nice, is what I hope to be. But then in reality, it might be hard. Anyway, I will try out my best first before calling it an end.

COMING BACK FROM KUANTAN

Just came back from Kuantan. Meet up with my parents, sister and aunt there. The trip is quite fun actually. Playing with all the kids there. Long time didn’t play with small kids already. And also challenge myself for drinking. I think I drank about 3.5 bottles of beer. Feel like getting drunk. But thank God I didn’t do something crazy yet. Haha… And also had a new hair cut there. Quite like the style actually. We had also tried out turtle’s meat for supper. In short, I did try a lot of new things there. Before my bus departing from Genting back to UKM, my elder sister gave me RM 100. Feel very happy. She does take care of us always. I think is not really due to the money, but because of the closeness and care that that we enjoyed during the trip.

等待或放弃

其实我本身已经等了蛮久。答案还是在模糊之间。当然，我希望我会成功。生活会过得更快乐，幸福。即使失败，我也可以直接死心。但是，他们还是叫我继续的等。我应该等到什么时刻呢？我会再努力的，但努力不代表成功。有时候，我觉得他们直接告诉我“对不起，你的申请失败了”会比较好吧。那我就可以直接放弃及死心。短期的伤心或许会比长期的等待来得更好吧。

MY EQ BECOMES WEAKER

I also don’t know why and don’t know since when, I think my EQ has become weaker nowadays. Is it because I over-pressure myself in my academic, or because too many unfairness happened or because of my personal issues? Still remember, once my friend asked me why do I feel so unhappy? She said my EQ used to be very strong. I feel moody very easily nowadays. Don’t really like the feeling. Hope that I can complete my master and leave UKM as soon as possible to go back to my naive life.